I just feel that having fun doing what you're (becoming) good at should never be ruined by extra pressure from other people or even from yourself.

That is as true of literature as of science. It is not just some curse, but rather because they tend to get recognised after their peak anyway.

Being able to think this (and really feel it) was a big step for me. I think objectively I was always quite smart and also highly educated but I still felt like an imposter. It's nice when you finally feel that trust in yourself. And indeed I probably sometimes look stupid, but I think I often come back quickly in smart ways afterwards anyway, so I don't care so much about it.